Kite Jockey’s Weblog

As many of you know I sold my X-Box 360 several weeks ago. I did this as an attempt to make a break with all the gaming that I was doing which has become pretty much an addiction for me and preventing me from doing other things that were, well,  more important. I took all of you and almost everyone else off of my friends list. In a very real way Do Wah Diddy was dead to the live online community.

What I did not tell anyone was that before I sold my 360 I bought an X-Box 360 Elite. I know this seems stupid and counter productive to my end game which was to be on LIVE less and to spend more time doing real life things. This experiment, even though it was based on a lie, was not a complete failure. Letting go of Do Wah Diddy did give me a much needed break.

However, I have not really stopped gaming, and I know now that short of a stroke or other life threatening event I will probably be playing until I run out of respawns (life). I will be doing my best to play less. As many of you know this can be a hard thing to stick to as the 360 can suck every ounce of free time out of our lives. I don’t have to tell you all how many nights I logged in around 9:00 PM and would game until the wee hours of the morning. Not only has this addiction kept me from doing stuff that needs to be done, like paying bills, fixing problems with the house, or being able to get out of bed the next day, it has also effected my time with my family. So I hope you all will forgive me for my lies and deceit, I felt I had no other choice, except well, giving up gaming all together, and that’s just crazy talk.

Each day that I don’t log in is another day that I get to spend time with Vicki or do other important things. I will still be on from time to time but my hope and prayer is that I don’t fall into the same old pattern again. Yes, I am still playing but I have been pretty good about turning off the X-Box before 12:00 most nights and not playing every single night. I still need to learn to go to bed at a decent hour and that goes beyond the 360. I have another bad habit of getting off of the 360 and jumping on my Mac and doing computer stuff till the wee hours too. So I still have a long way to go. I guess my addition is to technology in general so I cannot blame the 360 for all my woes. I know that all I need is some discipline in my life and that would fix most of my problems. I am working on that too but for now I am focusing my attention on one addiction at a time, for now it’s the 360 next is my computer.

Let the ridicule begin…